Pardon, I had to

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I had to walk away. 

I had to walk away because you didn't care if I existed or missed when you had people around. 

I had to walk away because you stopped being excited about communication. You made me believe that I would be the last person in a crowd you would choose to talk to.

I had to walk away because you stopped caring and being careful in choosing the words you were using then.

I had to walk away because you were never interested to fix things, you were always trying to avoid the conflicts while I was working on my flaws.

I had to walk away because secrets became a deal in between. You were sharing the details everyone was aware of while I was the opposite.

I had to walk away because I couldn't let you realise that hiding the truth from someone is a hundred times more painful than telling a lie or else maybe I couldn't serve what you deserved.

I had to walk away because of the loneliness, the suffocation I was born then was for the fact that maybe I was not enough good to be kept.

I had to walk away because you never had enough time for us. Going days without talking to me wasn't ever a deal to you.

I had to walk away because I realised you always sugarcoated the facts which were necessary to be presented raw.

I had to walk away because you believed that no matter how many times you'll break my trust, I'll stay the same.

I had to walk away because I realised that you took me for granted while I was just embracing you with all your flaws.

I had to walk away because I was just another option you chose while I treated you as my priority constantly and you were completely aware of it.

I had to walk away and i did.

P.S - Format of writing is inspired. A breakup note is completely different from a concise clarification. And here I am writing a short note to some close people, who lost me or else I walked far away.