Don't ask god ; where am I

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This time my little prayers served,

God gave me a cure and uttered

"Death" and I stuttered "a yes"!

Then my cracked heart was tired to beat,

My breaths are suffocated to go on,

My body is exhausted to carry out life,

leaping in the rain or Burning in glares didn't work;

I lost in the sky eventually and was saved!

Please Don't ask god; where am I?

You didn't ask when I was around,

Now I am in a place of truth and reality,

But it's desolate without some of you;

Life doesn't seem the same,

but I am resting in peace here!

I am not lifeless yet,

my body is just reciting 

the truth of the universe there;

I am still knocking in your heart

And wandering in your mind,

I may not  answer you back but I can listen to;

fragile things caring you around will prevail me!

The clingy annoying breeze will take away your sorrow,

The drops of rain will wipe all your tears,

The shooting star you stare at will fulfil all your wishes,

The comforting quiet wind or 

the dusty leaf touching your feet often is me,

The simplicity of that blooming rose in your garden or 

that bothering chirping of birds is me!

Say to them not to miss me any longer, 

because they didn't when I was alive;

I won't let them cry at my grave as my reprisal!

On the day of my funeral;

Announce I am free, not deceased,

Hundred moaned faces, and white draped bodies are frightening me;

Tell them these simulated garlands 

won't rejuvenate my soul 

but will just cover my quiet corpse!

Their fake mournings are disturbing me;

Shout them not to weep their crocodile tears;

I don't need these,

Your tears and dad's face 

are enough to make me scream!

After cremations, just don't let my room trim;

Because I am still lying in the corner!

I can't condone the sorrow of my flowers in the pot,

Or the half-painted canvases lying there;

I Am still alive in them!

Chotti, I am not alone here;

I gathered the aroma of all your affections

and left some from my side in those diaries!

Find me in my paintings, my favourite song, 

and the last slice of pizza;

Though I miss the hand-cooked food of maa, 

Some conversations with dad,

And the quarrels with you.

Don't miss me, 

I am always there with you, 

Clapping for your success and 

Holding you when you tumble!

Tears in your maa's eyes, 

                                                         vanished smile on your face and 

                                                                   leaning head of my papa

breaching my soul again!

Please don't moan, I am forever yours!

In happy memories we shared and The tears we dealt!

I am around you as the fragrance of nature;

Trust me, I am alright here!

Pardon me for choosing peace over, 

I hope I did my best!